when u are looking for your future, u will never find it in your past

when u are looking for your future, u will never find it in your past especially when it comes to bringing your last relationship troubles into your new one... punishing the new person for what your last one did to u. taking the hurt of your last relationship out on the new one, no matter if they deserve it or not....making them guilty before innocent, being selfish and withholding kinds things u used to do because "they last one didn't deserve it" or closing yourself off. you are in the new relationship having a 3some, because u r still dating the ghost of your ex..... it's never just the 2 of u, you are still bringing the ghost of your ex along...... during every outing, in every arguement, everytime they do something to remind u of a situation, everytime an old song plays...... well that's what your actions say....Without the end one story, you can't really begin another. It becomes a sequel of your past struggles. Poisons everything else thereafter... you cant have tomorrow until u are willing to let go of yesterday...... when u are looking for your future, u will never find it in your past........ what binds us to that? (which in most cases is usually a matter of forgiveness) funny thing about forgiveness is that it doesn't free them....... it frees urself, releases you from that painfull attachment and momory that binds you to that person... u may not think so, you may have burried that seed and think you have forgotten about it, but, just cause u dont see it anymore, doesn't mean it's gone... it's simply just under the surface...... but what do all burried seeds do? ....grow roots..... if you dont up root it in forgiveness and give it away, the next thing that will happen is that u will be lost in a jungle of your own design..... and every person u look at, and date will start to taste alot like that bitter root.......... if it's not that, it is usually a hidden bondage from the spirits of doubt and fear in your life (but hey that's another blog altogether and i know peeps dont read long blogs lol).......... infact i have too many places to go with this one so i'll cut it off here b4 it gets to any real meat

thru the fire

dont always get mad when people throw dirt at you..... sometimes its just the soil you need to grow. it's not until most seeds have the entire earth on their shoulders, covering them up, and have that dark, dark cloud raining on them, before they can digg down and get rooted.....the next thing that happends is amazing,........ they grow!!! despit all that, at their lowest point, they grow roots and they push up. it's not over night, but keep growing, not even the very dirt throw at you can keep you down even again, it has to move out the way for growth!.... its hard to appreciate the sun until you've been in the dirt..... it take the rain AS WELL as the sun to grow... like is film, it is developed from the negatives.....in order for steele to be forged, it has to first go thru the fire.. but that fire makes it pure, so appreciate it.... then after the fire, its not over, it is pounded and pounded... hammered over and over again...... but that makes it strong, strong enough to withstand all things........ the sad part is, if you never go thru your fire, you will never be made steele. u cant run from it, u either go thru your fire now or u'll end up going thru it later..... but you have to grow. that's kinda how God works, he wants you to be made pure........ Moses had to go thru his wilderness before he could see his promise land..... but i will tell you this..... with faith, u will ALWAYS get thru, always out the dirt, always forged, always to the promise land, and like the litte seed, u will never be the same again. he grows you even while you are in the dirt.... so when the dirt come, when the storm comes, when the fire comes, say thank you! cause it is your testing grounds, and once you past your test, you will never ever be the same again. trials and tribulations bring you away from the world and closer to God. without a test there is no testimony. God will never give you what you cant bare... the trick is, dont ever try to do it on your own strength.. thankfully if we trust in Him, we'll never have to

Romans 5:3-4 "We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they are good for us. They help us learn to endure. And endurance develops strength of character in us, and character strengthens our confident expectation of salvation."

ok, now that this blog has gone in a totally differnt direction then what i meant, let me go back to the original thought pattern i was goin to make about seeds.... sowing seeds, and climate......watch out for words you use, and the seeds you plant. actually i'mma make this another blog, brb